I am doing the best I can to mentally prepare myself for certain expectations that Richard has of me. I sat here and tried unsuccessfully to write about how I was feeling about one particular future expectation. The only way to describe it is by allowing you into our world. The only way I can explain this is by sharing with you the back and forth exchange surrounding this new topic for me. I welcome your opinions on this topic as I have never encounterd such a demand……
Tuesday Email from Richard
the next time you shower, I want you to pick a nice solid stream of water
and as it hits your chest, I want you to imagine it is me peeing on you.
I then want you to hold that thought and let that stream hit your face.
Lastly, open your mouth and let the stream fill your mouth and overflow
and run down your body. Keep your imagination going. Please do it with
the water temperature closer to body temp than your usual very hot shower.
report back in the next day or two.
Oh, and don’t bother with any “really?” or “are you serious?” A two word
response is all that is required.
Tuesday -Response from me
Friday Reminder from Richard via email
I haven’t heard from you on this. Can it be that you’ve stopped showering?
Friday -Response from me
….no sir. I am sorry. I will admit to forgetting to write about my thoughts.
Saturday- Verbal reminder from Richard to complete my assignment
My response via email
my assignment……I do not remember the exact details of what you wanted from me. I remember what you told me to think about as I showered….and you may be shocked that I didn’t feel many of the emotions you may have expected me to feel.The idea of that happening scares me because I think it may change how you feel about me…I mean what kind of girl (even a subbie) allows that to happen to her. To me though it is another part of my submission….I would do it because you would get pleasure out of causing me that embarrassment and humiliation…not to mention the fact that being embarrassed and humiliated is erotic to me. In a few ways that is the ultimate in objectifying someone….honestly….peeing on someone is telling that person I can make you everything or I can make you nothing. Very powerful ….so much control to have over a person.
Response from Richard via email
nicely written. You do not need to worry about it changing the way I feel about you. You know how I feel about you – and I already know I can do this to you at any time I choose. So my thoughts about you or how I feel about you will not change at all.
You have some time to get your head around this while I’m away. You might want to read more blogs dealing with the subject. Here, for example:
I’m sure you can find more, my toy. Now that we’ve gotten the word ‘cocksucker’ out of your mouth, maybe we can work on “piss slut.”